Mind your own business

So I went to Starbucks with my sister today after my final this morning just to get coffee with her and I arrived before her so I found a table with a outlet so that I can study for my next final. There was a couch that was behind me. My sister finally showed up and we got some coffee and sat back down at the table. There was a older guy that was behind me on the couch and every time that her and I would start talking the guy would stare at us. I didn't realize that he was looking at us till my sister said something so I told her to let me know that he looked at us again. So he did and I turned around and asked him if he wanted to join in on what we were talking about.

I can be rude but I have NEVER in my life have I been so rude to look at the people that were talking next to me. Yeah I will listen in but I know better to not look at them while they talked. Though what this guy was doing was more then just looking he was staring at us. When I turned around to ask him if he wanted to join in he got all flustered, grabbed his laptop and left.

If you are going to be listening in to what the people are talking about don't stare at them. To be good at listening in is to LISTEN to them not look at them every time they start talking. After awhile they will catch on to you and they will stop talking or just leave.

Life

Life sucks. As hard I try to make my life somewhat normal there is always something that comes along and knocks what I have accomplished into dust and I have to start all over again. Right now all I want to do is curl up and die. Nothing seems to be going right and it is making me depressed. Where is this God that people talk about? Where is he in the time of need? I am just fed up with how shitty my life is. No one seems to realize that I have changed and stuff that I have done in the past is not who I am today and not what I do now.

If there is anyone reading this please let me know what you have done to get over the rough times in your life. I need some advice on how to deal with this.

I am a full time student and I am currently jobless at the moment. Most of my "free" is spent doing homework. My parents don't realize that I am having a hard time with my classes so they decide that they will bother me every few minutes to ask me something or to do something. I have been drinking nothing but coffee for the last four weeks just to keep me awake. I have never really gotten any kind of sleep in the past but because of this semester I sleep maybe three hours out of the night because I have so much going on in my life that I just can't keep up.

One of those days.

I know it is going to be one of those days because I have had three cups of coffee already and I have not had any kind of effects from it.

I'm am getting over a cold AND I just started that ever so lovely time of the month today. Was suppose to be working in the nursery at church but I can't because of the fact that I have a cold and that I don't want to give the rug rats what I have. Which doesn't make sense because that was how I got this bloody cold anyways.

All I want to do is curl up and either sleep or die. Not sure what I want to curl up and do.

Well I'm going to go finish my coffee and maybe even think about what my next blog post will be about.