Lost and confused.

24 years old almost 25 and I have nothing good to prove for my life. I don't have a job, I can't drive and I am pretty much failing out of college. I can't handle the stress right now. My parents do nothing but bitch at me about how I need to bust my ass by getting a job, driving and working harder in college. I have started applying for different places and they don't seem to believe me that I have applied to different places. It is tempting to just leave this place and just live on the streets. They seem to have it better and it is easier for them.


My advice is that people need to figure out that they shouldn't be so hard on others because you don't know what battle they are going through. Some have it easy and others are just holding on by their finger nails. So be nice to everyone you meet. Give them a smile it would make their day if they are having a bad day or not.

Life

Life sucks. As hard I try to make my life somewhat normal there is always something that comes along and knocks what I have accomplished into dust and I have to start all over again. Right now all I want to do is curl up and die. Nothing seems to be going right and it is making me depressed. Where is this God that people talk about? Where is he in the time of need? I am just fed up with how shitty my life is. No one seems to realize that I have changed and stuff that I have done in the past is not who I am today and not what I do now.

If there is anyone reading this please let me know what you have done to get over the rough times in your life. I need some advice on how to deal with this.

I am a full time student and I am currently jobless at the moment. Most of my "free" is spent doing homework. My parents don't realize that I am having a hard time with my classes so they decide that they will bother me every few minutes to ask me something or to do something. I have been drinking nothing but coffee for the last four weeks just to keep me awake. I have never really gotten any kind of sleep in the past but because of this semester I sleep maybe three hours out of the night because I have so much going on in my life that I just can't keep up.

One of those days.

I know it is going to be one of those days because I have had three cups of coffee already and I have not had any kind of effects from it.

I'm am getting over a cold AND I just started that ever so lovely time of the month today. Was suppose to be working in the nursery at church but I can't because of the fact that I have a cold and that I don't want to give the rug rats what I have. Which doesn't make sense because that was how I got this bloody cold anyways.

All I want to do is curl up and either sleep or die. Not sure what I want to curl up and do.

Well I'm going to go finish my coffee and maybe even think about what my next blog post will be about.